It's Been Awhile

Well my friends I know it's been awhile since my last post, so I wanted to try and catch up a bit.


The reason for my absence here has been caused from the surgery, and rehab, it has been excruciatingly slow and painful!!!
I know it will be worth it when everything is healed, but it sure seems to be taking a long time to get there....
The surgery went well, although a lot more work was needed than was expected.... removing parts of the labral, bursa, rotator-cuff, and shoulder blade itself, and removing bone spurs, and repairing a tear in the rotator-cuff.........
It's been a little over four weeks, and am now able to use my arm for small things, but still having a lot of pain, and muscle spasms, although I can now life my arm above my head without assistance........ yesterday was the first day I was able to that.....
Needless to say typing wasn't real comfortable either with the angle my arm was at........


Hopefully though things are on the upswing though...........


In other news we have a giant scale warbird fly-in coming up April 9,10, 11...... Hopefully weather will be cooperative, so if you are in the area please feel free to stop in and say hello, and enjoy some beautiful RC airplanes....


Thank you again for all the prayers and well wishes, you all are in ours

Surgery

Well tomorrow is surgery day to rebuild my left shoulder
Surprisingly as of now I'm not too worried about it..... I have the tendency to not like this sort of thing, but I think the need for it is over-riding any worries.
I know that it is in God's hands and whatever His will is will be done.


So any prayers would be greatly appreciated....... 


and I might not be on facebook or blogging much for several days, so I can recoup and rehab, but we will see 

Our Lil Visitor

I've Got it Made

Looking out this morning, seeing the snow on the ground, from my nice warm couch, cuddled up with my kitty-cats....  I realize I've got it made.....


I was thinking about my life, the lives of friends and acquaintances, and all that we've been through....
I've had so many people tell me I've had a rough life...... It's funny when I really stop and think about it, I guess I can see why people might say that, but I've never thought of it that way..... I've thought of it as it's just the way life is......(If that makes any sense)


Yes I've had some knocks in life, and some things happen that, well, lets face it... sucked LoL.......But I've been fortunate in so many other ways....
I have my mind (though some might debate that)  I'm able to pick up the phone and text, email, or call a friend, my daughter, family members....
I'm able to look back over my life and cry about some things that have happened, laugh at others, and just dream about others......
The most wonderful thing though I have to say honestly Is Being Saved.......  I came to a point where I realized I wasn't the world, and the world wasn't me.......and no matter how many mistakes I had made in my life, I could be forgiven...... The great blessing in this is it allowed me to forgive all those that had hurt me......
It allows me to think and know that no matter what I suffer in life, it will always be better........ In short I guess it allows me to look at the world through rose-colored glasses...... No matter how much wrong there is, there will always be justice.....


So as I continue to watch the snow melt, I would like to just remind people that no matter how bad things seem at this moment, it will pass........ Think back to those days when we were young, and relive some of those dreams we had......
As silly as it may sound, I've had so much fun the past few days thinking about the past: friends, loves, and things dreamed and done.....
It makes me realize that we are never to old to dream...... Never to old to start something new........ The older we get it seems we tend to take ourselves a lot more seriously......... Whoever said we had to become serious and loose that inner child???
yes we have responsibilities that we must take care of and meet......... but after those are taken care of...........................Let's all try and dream a little more, and Thank God for the days we have had, and have left.......

And the Results Are..........

well the results are in, and what I thought might be a simple tendinitis and small rotator cuff tear, well, lets say I was pretty far off......
Looking at the MRI on the screen waiting for the doctor, I thought to myself and made a comment..."Wow that looks like a disaster"  I didn't know I could read MRI's LoL
As it turns out, there is a pretty good size rotator cuff tear, a slap tear (still haven't quite figured that one out, I thinks it part of the tendon"  and several large bone spurs......
So the results are Shoulder Surgery.... Boy oh boy!!!
well as it turns out, he will be also removing part of my collar-bone because it is rubbing bone on bone, to cause less friction and hopefully prevent more damage....


I guess It's hard for me to do anything the simple way  LoL  The doctor was very reassuring in telling me that I would have more pain than most other people who have this type of surgery do to the fact of being on pain meds for my back......  More great news!!!!


I'm not sure of the date yet, but it looks as though it will be getting done early next week, so keep me in your prayers please......  It looks like it will be quite a bit of PT afterwards trying to keep scar tissue from building up and causing more problems so not sure how much I'll be on or updating when this occurs.......


If any of you want to volunteer to come help nurse me back, it would be appreciated  LoL
Angie is already thinking of the inconveniences this could cause to her schedule LoL
Fun, fun, fun...... I'm just hoping it won't kill building time... so the planes will be ready to fly this spring...... Think I'll probably be buddy-boxing though for awhile until I have confidence in the arm and shoulder again though....


In other news..... Still no word from my Dani....... I'm still so excited about finding her after all these years!!!!   I've run conversations through my head, of what I think i might say, but in all honesty, I don't have a clue..... It's from a time in my life where things were so innocent, I wonder how much life has changed both of us in all these years???   Sometimes thinking about it I can't help but shed a tear, I guess because our love didn't end by choice, but by parents relocating.......  I don't know..... It was just a wonderful time in my life that I don't think I could ever look back at with anything but fondness of those times we were able to share together..................   I wonder if she feels the same way...... or even thinks about it ......

Still Waiting

Well I've had a few ask about my last post, and what was going on with Dani....... Well, nothing yet LoL....
I haven't heard anything back from my brief message..... So when and if I do I will post more on that.....

This week will be one of more doctors appointments, finally having completed the MRI's now I wait for the follow up to see how bad the shoulder is should know more tomorrow......

Just have been spending a lot of time thinking of people and how they come in and out of our lives, and why some stay, and others fade away....And really just thinking what directions to take in life, you know that usual ponder stuff we do now and then LoL

Teenage Dreams

Well I guess I have to admit that I really am a sentimental fool....
Speaking with a good friend from the past and now a few days ago brought back some memories that I hadn't really shared with anyone in years...... Mainly my first love......
After our conversation it made me start to look for her again........  See we dated in junior and part of high school...... Then we got the horrid news her father was being transferred to Florida......
As I looked around the web, all the sudden I came across a photo.... I knew right then I had found my baby from all those years ago......
It just brought back an avalanche of emotions, feelings, thoughts, dreams we shared, and that I had on my own..
I was suddenly transported back in time to seeing her walking towards me with her little dog running along side her.... Holding hands walking through the park........ Then standing in the rain early that morning she left.....


I remember the dreams that we would be together again, and how upset I was when her address was lost in one of the many projects my parents decided to do which entailed my room being moved...
It's so funny how something at such a young age can affect you so much so many years later.  I remember searching through phone books, on trips to Florida through the years trying to find her.....(Keep in mine this was before the internet, plus I'm still not that net savvy)


Suddenly I was at a loss for words, and couldn't even find what to say in a message to her.....  all I could manage to eek out was just is this the Dani I know....... 
I wondered how her life had been, did she think of me as often through the years as I thought of her, did she live her dreams, and had she ever tried to find me as well.........


I don't really know the answers to all these things yet, and not sure I ever will, as i'm waiting for a reply to my note I wrote, and although I've gained quite a bit of courage in my age, I'm not sure I have the courage to tell her what an impact she had on my life..... I've found it easier to tell the few people I had crushes on in my younger days about them with time, and laugh about them, as I never acted on them back then.....
This though was my first real love, my first kiss, and the first time I ever really thought about the rest of my life...... Before her girlfriends were something in name only...... you know the type where you just smile at each other in class, BUT NEVER even thought about holding hands much less kissing...  LoL......  My oh my how times have changed looking at our youths today.


What happens now???  I have no idea, as life has made so many changes in us through all these years, but I hope it's the beginning of a new friendship, catching up, and maybe even reminiscing about those teenage dreams we shared back then.....